[Panya Echiiro]

“Perhaps one day we could test that theory, though I doubt it,” Echiiro said jokingly. Maybe one day, he’d get drunk or curious enough to try sleeping with a man. Hell, that day may come sooner than expected, especially with how much Auden is peaking his curiosity. “The fact that you think you can handle me is even funnier, I tend to be a bit too explosive and destructive at times….wait….that sounded wrong!”

“Mankind’s main purpose in life is to suffer, I mean without suffering we will never be motivated to improve our position in life.” Echiiro honestly didn’t know if what he said made sense, it sounded right, but it seemed Auden needed to be comforted about something, and well, Echiiro didn’t know how to comfort the other male. “Maybe he said, and maybe not, I don’t have time for a relationship. My main motivation is to become the strongest and greatest hero in the world. Relationships will provide an unneeded distraction and weakness.”

“That’s fair, I suppose,” Echiiro scratched the underside of his chin and cast Auden a curious glance. “And what would you do if I wanted more? What would you do if you liked the kiss and I didn’t? Hmmm? You're placing yourself in an oddly vulnerable position.” He asked, sitting on his bed with the boxes. “Wouldn’t it be odd to kiss your roommate? I mean you have to see that person every day!”

“But…I suppose….” He paused for a moment. Auden was feminine-looking, it couldn’t say much about him if he just tried. Echiiro got up from the bed, closed the door, and locked it. "I don't want anyone to eavesdrop on the conversation ..."

[Auden]

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"Fun." Auden snickered, trying not to take that comment out of context to make things even weirder between them. "I won't doubt that you are, but I don't know how long that offer will be open." Even now, he wavered on if it would even provide him with any benefit to do something like that when his heart wasn't in it.

"I see, good luck to you then." Auden had heard that all before, wanting to be the "greatest ever". Was it even something that was worth attaining if you couldn't be yourself anymore? "That's never been my goal. Being the best at something is subjective and sounds like you'd just be marrying the idea of being a hero rather than living... But I'm sure you could do it." Auden had a lot of motivation, but not enough to devote himself to one thing, especially not the idea of something like being a hero was.

"Do whatever you want." He'd just shrug, his gaze half-casted onto Echiiro. "I've never had an issue kissing people, but I hope you don't expect it to be super romantic." It was physical touch, and even now, he was okay with giving it out to those that wanted it or were curious. To him, he was fine with giving someone else a sense of understanding through him. "It's not really a since of if I liked it or not, I'm just giving you the chance to try it." Auden's feelings on the matter didn't count in his eyes.

"I'd rather us have kissed than for you to be staring at me longingly when I change or something. If you kiss me and find out that you're not interested, then I don't have to worry about you being a perv and eye-fucking me." He'd sit up and look towards Echiiro on his own bed, crossing his legs. Watching him go to lock the door, he did everything in his power not to laugh at how immature it was. Auden was sure that people were doing much worse. "It's your choice, just let me know." Fixing his hair, he would look down and idly scroll on his phone, looking at the latest fashion trends. If he wanted a kiss, Auden wouldn't complain.

Notes

☼ Felix || White button dress [o]

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“I probably will not take you up on that offer,” Echiiro stated honestly, a bit of aggression lingering in his voice. Not that he didn’t want to take Auden on that offer, Echiiro was, admittedly, just conflicted about the entire situation. Perhaps it was just fear of his father finding out that his only son might like men. Plus, a male hero who slept with men? What kind of reputation would that give him? Echiiro bit his lip hard enough to draw blood. “Not that the offer isn’t flattering or anything….”

“Some people simply don’t have the stomach for such an ambition, I don’t deny, it can be a bit stressful at times.” He said with a small smile. It was true. Echiiro barely had time for himself, and well, certainly did not have time for a social life. To make matters worse, Echiiro didn’t really know why he wanted to be the greatest hero ever. Maybe it was because he wanted to protect people, that felt right. But also, maybe it was because he was doing what he was told, that felt right too.

“I’ve only kissed a guy once ….. It was a guy …. And someone really special,” He paused for a moment, pushing some boxes to the side and lying down. “My father caught us in the middle of the act, and his anger, his anger was terrible.” He paused, shaking his head and starring at the ceiling in thought. “I would like to kiss you, as a test, but I don’t want my father to find out….I can’t risk it.”

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He'd just shrug, not caring either way what the answer was. Auden didn't have the enjoyment of intrigue that something like that once had, because he had already figured out who he wanted to pursue long-term. Anything before being able to be with Alexandrei was a simple fling for fun or boredom. "I'm sure you think it is, I appreciate you being honest with me about it." He couldn't fault him for just not wanting to do it, after all.

"Just... Don't let it consume you. Just like the villains we fight, any extreme of anything isn't good for you." He'd hate to see someone so young and innocent be consumed by the drive to be the best that they stopped living all together. "You need to have a balance, just like anything." If Echiiro would listen to him was unknown, but at least he had said his peace.

Auden would look around the room for a moment, confused. "Sorry, I don't see him here." He understood the wrath of a father, but he didn't understand the wanting to let others control your actions. "How would he find out? I don't have secret spy cameras plugged into your father's phone." Still, all Auden would do would be to look up from his phone and watch him. "If you let your father control who you love, or anyone for that matter, then you're not living. You're living the ideal version of yourself someone else has made up to make themselves happy." Auden hated when others thought that they had a say in his life and could dictate it. "While some advice and guidance can be helpful, being homophobic isn't. Look at how you reacted to me the second we met- if I hadn't been the way I was, that could have ended in you getting suspended, us fighting, or us never being able to be friends. A few simple words can cut deep for some, and I'm sure others wouldn't have taken your backhanded remarks lightly." He'd pause, leaning over more on his own bed. "But here you are now, seriously considering kissing me if it weren't for the idea that your father will find out behind a secure, locked room. How much of your actions are you going to let him have a say in?" His response was pointed and mean, but not aggressive; Auden only hoped that it would make Echiiro think. "If you being into men makes him angry, well, you got a pretty strong ally on your side that could beat him the fuck up. Just be yourself, and if you're not sure who you are, find it out while you're wanting to do so."

Notes

☼ Felix || White button dress [o]

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[Panya Echiiro]

The incident occurred when Echiiro was fourteen years old. The guy whom he kissed was a “jock,” one of the popular kids who had a reputation to keep. Both he and Echiiro felt estranged from their fathers, and well, they both had a lot in common. After the incident, Echiiro barely chatted with the guy. His father threatened the kid and his family, and in return, the kid’s father threatened him and his family. It was a whole scandal. One that led to his heart being broken and the lost of his only friend.

“I suppose that makes sense,” He said with a slight nod. “Although, I personally believe that in order to combat the extreme of villains, we need a hero who is willing to go just as far as the villains to protect innocent people.” It was the truth and his own words, words echoed from his father’s more extreme sense of justice. Perhaps, it was a good thing that his dad didn’t have what it took to become a hero.
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Auden words hit Echiiro hard, but, the other male simply did not understand how much of a grip his father had on the magmatic brat. “I don’t know, my father has his ways …. He seems to uncover everything in time…..” He said, refusing to make eye contact with Auden. Echiiro knew that Auden was right, that he shouldn’t live in his father’s shadow, but, that’s all he knew! What else was out there than what his father taught him? Who would he be if he cast aside his father’s influence on him? Yes, his father was cruel, mean, and too draconian, but through his father’s influence, he made it here. “You think it's that simple? Throughout my entire life, I’ve been his perfect boy, save for that small moment, and well, I must admit I’ve grown used to it.” he rolled over to his side, ignoring what Auden said about being into men and having allies. “Its not that simple….sometimes we have to sacrifice our happiness and desires for the greater good.”