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Felix

Felix would wait outside for a few moments, before coming in with a sigh. Lookinga t how Auden was clinging into Alex, he knew that he wasn't going to win when it came to getting Auden to see reason. Don't let him hurt you, you get hurt too easily. He wanted to say it, but he knew that he couldn't protect and baby his brother forever. He was old enough to make his own choices, and if his heart was set on Alexandrei, he'd allow him to do it until Alex did something that was unforgiveable.

"Yes, I think so." He wouldn't deny that he felt off about Alexandrei, but if Auden trusted him this much there had to be something that was redeeming about him, right? "I judged you as the person that allowed my brother to get hurt, but not the person that'd also saved him." Felix wanted to deny it, or chalk it up to Auden being loopy from the medication. In reality, he knew that he owed Alexandrei a great debt.

"You said that... He got hurt because you were thinking. That made me think that you weren't paying attention to Auden, or your surroundings." He'd pause, looking at him confused. "Why? Why would you be oblivious when it could have costed him and you your lives? What happened?" He wanted to know every detail in hopes that it would make sure that he didn't warrant another slap to the face.

Notes

⥋ Auden || Sweat pants, old t-shirt, sneakers.

Felix alexandrei

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Alexandrei pauses as to not say anymore thoughtless words. What did happen? As far as he recalled, Auden had mention romantic partnership but also how love could be familial rather than sexual in nature, and that bond was unbreakable. But was it, really? He had spent his entire life with his twin brother, they had been the best of friends. But it still ended up the way it did, and there wasn't any changing that.[break][break]

Perhaps, it was the grief of remembering that fact that consumed him so wholly in that moment that he didn't notice something as vital as to his friend being physically gutted right before him.[break][break]

"I..." For the first time in a while, Alexandrei seems to be at a loss for words. "I think... I remembered something. My memory is spotty, and I think talking with Auden triggered something deeply recessive in my mind, something that I had forgotten— tried to forget. The resurgence of such a memory baffled me, so much that I didn't realise what was happening to me, or whatever was happening around me. It left me vulnerable, and Auden too." Alexandrei looks from Felix to Auden. "Auden mentioned that bonds are more than just surface view. If you let them, they tie deeply down below, where no one can see them, or no one else can recognise them. Familial love is the same thing. What you and him have, as brothers, I must have once had too." The astronomer stares at the floor. "But I'm not so sure now."[break][break]

He doesn't notice that his grip on Auden's hand has turned vice-like.
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Felix was going to try his best to understand Alexandrei's point of view. From what he could tell, Auden had a crush on him for whatever reason, and they were colleagues. With a small, almost silent sigh, he'd lean in and listen.

Felix was trying this best to see him neutrally. After he was able to hear him talk about how he was experiencing things so differently from both of them, Felix understood much more. Felix couldn't imagine what it would be like to not remember your past. With that alone, he was proud that his title brother was actually talking the time to understand that out of Alexandrei. Even though Felix prided himself on being patient and caring, he wasn't that for someone that Auden truly cared for.

Out of disgrace, he would get down and bow to Alexandrei. "...I'm truly sorry for what I did. My anger got out of hand and... You don't deserve that- you don't deserve my hate." He never hated Alexandrei, but he was feeling as if it could have turned into a loathing if he hadn't heard those words out of the hero. Slowly, he would get out of his bowing position and look back over to Alexandrei. "Bonds matter a lot, and I've soiled the one that you have with Auden over this... Please, take as much time as you want with him, I know that he was looking forward to it." Felix knew that bonds were important; he couldn't imagine Auden slapping Sadako because of something she'd done like he had to Alexandrei. "Hopefully we can become acquaintances in our own time. Since you may be around him more than me now-" Felix paused, making his speaking quieter "-please keep him safe." He'd smile and offer Alex a handshake if he wanted, before stepping out of the room to leave them be.

Notes

⥋ Auden || Sweat pants, old t-shirt, sneakers.

Felix Auden

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Auden

After hearing what Alexandrei had to say, all he wanted to do was pull him into a hug. Auden couldn't imagine how hard it must be to talk about such topics; he only hoped that Auden and Felix being so close wasn't bringing up any old wounds. He stared at the stargazer, his eyes lulling over his figure with admiration. Auden knew that it was foolish of him to expect anything out of Alexandrei, but he hoped that there was a future where the man could stay in his life in some manner.

His life fantasies were pulled away by his brother making a fool of himself. God, Felix was cringy. He watched as his brother would bow in front of them like he had wronged them beyond belief. It was... Odd. Seeing his brother act in such a way was unlike what he had grown up seeing. Looking down towards him, Auden would just blink and hope that it ended soon.

"Felix..." Auden didn't want to feel so embarrassed about Alex "keeping him safe." Whatever their connection was, Auden would be okay with it. A future that he idolized was a fantasy for a reason; it was okay to just have him here, and to be present with him. Looking down to their hands, Auden wouldn't even comment on the fact that his hands were literally white from the lack of blood to it. Once Felix left, he'd place his other hand on Alexandrei's, not even caring that the grip was tight and deep; if he could be his protection, then he was fine with any interactions that he felt comfortable with.

"I'm... Thanks for wanting to share and being so honest about your past. I'm sure that it isn't easy to share things, but it's good to be able to get to know more about you." The phoenix paused, before moving to sit more comfortably. Stifling a whimper of pain from the wound he still very much had, he'd give an awkward chuckle in its place to mask the sound. "Anyways... I hope that you can create bonds again, and that you can remember them enough to tell stories to others about it fully." Auden wasn't going to say he wanted that, but wanted to bring up the idea to Alexandrei in hopes that it was something he'd strive for. "...Is that something you'd want?"

Notes

☼ Felix || Hospital gown.

Auden alexandrei

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Alexandrei's mouth slams shut as he watches Felix kneel to the ground and continue speaking, the astronomer musing over Felix's words. Keep him safe. Yes, keep him safe. In the end, he could only try— but given his loss of thought, loss of purpose, Alexandrei still doesn't know if he has it in him to try and exist or become such a person. He's lived such a monotonous life ever since his amnesia began. Alexandrei accepts Felix's handshake with a blank stare as he thinks. Could he ever be such a selfless person like he once was again?[break][break]

At the sound of Auden's voice, Alexandrei immediately loosens his grip, snapping back to the present moment, murmuring a quiet apology. "Careful," he mutters quickly as Auden shifting made him appear to be more in pain. He gives the phoenix's words an attentive moment of pondering.[break][break]

Is it something he wanted?[break][break]

"I..." Alexandrei pauses, uncertain. "... do not know if that is something I would want." He admits.[break][break]

"Some memories are invaluable." He continues. "They come and go, change in shape and form, and become something else far from what really happened. Some are horrific, and only exist to be forgotten. How I've forgotten most of my life, apart from key moments, and a handful of people... surely there must have been a reason for that. To witness everything I've known disappear, almost as if I were someone in the audience rather than being there myself, then... is it really something I should remember?" Alexandrei sighs. "Is the past... is it really worth holding onto so much?"

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