[CHUCK MCCOY]

✧ RIP ✧

Vega and Altair got a lil too real. A goddess falling in love with a mortal, a love so divine it was wrote in the stars. Separated as they were, they lived for the single day they got to meet. N’ it all made sense, hit a lil too close to home. I’d mourn lifetimes for the privilege of loving my moongirl on earth, ate thousands of kilometers during the long distance and woulda hella do it all over again at a moment’s notice. To finally be connected with the person who’d see you, love you as you were, ugly mug under the mask and all, was to find the once-in-a-lifetime thing. Add in the fact that she wanted to mutually build a life with me n’ I was hella sure I’d stumbled on a cosmic anomaly, a lapse in fate. I’d gladly fork up forever in wait for the promise of loving her another day. So I’d love her, each day, like it was our last.

Today was my reminder. “Hella cool out here, ain’t it?” I softly say, squeezing her hand as another one pushed the dual stroller. “My lil nerd.” We found a private path hemmed in by immaculate bamboo, nature’s perfection somehow making the myth of this day all the more potent. As if their stardust itself drifts upon these grounds, molds it into their shared crown upon earth. “Hey, between the two of them, who do ya think’s gonna be the artsy one?” I’m grinning, gently leading us until we’d find table seating with red, worn benches for us. Wildlife cooes from above, sunlight opening its arms to us with radiance. I’d spread out the paper, pen and markers from our little supply bag, but not before leaning in to kiss my gorgeous wife!! My Charon, my end all be all.

tag: Kazashi McCoy

[Kazashi McCoy]

When they first started dating Kazashi hadn't dared dream of days like this. Pluto and Charon were destined to perform their cosmic dance in the darkest recesses of space, and yet here they were, walking side by side in the sunlight. Two people from completely different worlds, one feared as a villain while the other was heralded as a hero. Well, maybe that's how most of society saw it anyway. That was their truth, but it wasn't her truth. She loved no one more than Chuck McCoy. Her soulmate for life, now husband and father to their kids. There was probably hella many timelines out there, so she felt blessed every day that she was lucky enough that she got to live through the best one with him.

''Who are ya callin' a nerd, nerd?'' She squeezed his hand back and leaned in to kiss his cheek. A serene bamboo forest walk with her family in the summertime, there was nothing better. Were the kids enjoying themselves in the stroller too? She was dying to hear them speak for the first time, hear them say silly things and comment on everything around them. ''The artsy one?'' She peeked over to look at them, Zenji's big eyes taking in every detail, nothing was slipping past their son! Meanwhile, Yuzuki seemed to be enjoying another short nap, blinking in and out of sleep. ''Don't know, Ah think they both have a good shot at it.'' She wrapped her arms around Chuck, kissing him back as they reached the benches. ''Ah mean, we're both artsy in our own ways, aren't we? Ya make weapons an' do carpentry an' Ah do sewin' an' knittin'.'' She caressed his cheek for a moment before pulling away to help the little ones out of the stroller. ''Up an' out! We're here. ~'' She hummed, making silly faces to try and make the twins laugh.

CHUCK MCCOY

[CHUCK MCCOY]

✧ RIP ✧

I lick my lips, a mischievous grin come alive at them!! “You, you supercute nerd!” My cheek was on fire where she kissed, the squeeze of my hand interlocked in hers the greatest feeling in all the universe. On God, how many years we’ve been together and I need it as badly as day one, like I’m staring all the way up at her in the Disney store even now. Then my dead eyes follow her crossed auric own, seeing them in our kids still somehow so surreal. The mini, perfect blend between the two of us. Sometimes, I just couldn’t look away. “Mm,” I so eloquently agree, mind gone blank when our lips touch and my hands greedily clutch her lower back. A lightbulb goes off in my head!! “Artsy, me?! I-I’ll take it, but your work’s a helluva lot prettier!” My cheek lingers in her caress, nose nuzzling the soft ridge of her collarbone. Summer cicadas hum behind us, sunshine kissing us above. I was happy to stay like that forever.

Infinite years long
I still love you fresh as dew
Water to cracked earth
chuck loves kaz

Zenji bursts out laughing at his mom’s expressions, Yuzuki taking a moment before she balls up in baby giggles too!! “That’s right, babies! Today’s the Star Festival!” I tickle their tums, helping taking them out the strollers. “You write wishes, anything, ANYTHING you can think of in this world, you can have! Anything you put your mind to. Nothing’s too great for you, Zenji, for you, Yuzuki!! Nothing in all this world!” I felt fatherly tears building up behind my eyeballs!! “Anyway, you put your lil baby hands like this n’ write ‘em all! Then we’re gonna hang ‘em on trees and they’ll come true!! Or I beat up whoever’s in charge of this whole thing.” I smirk, putting Yuzuki on my lap and very gently working a pencil into her tiny lil fingers. She half-gets it and I smile, putting my massive meaty hand over hers and holding the pencil over the paper.

When i die i see
a thousand one suns of you
Rest my soul in you
:chuckloveskaz:

“Can you guess your mama’s wish?” I faux-whisper to her. “I bet that it’s our lil ZuZus growing strong and healthy!! Or a full boatload of sushi!” A spare hand glides over Kazashi’s knee and all the way down her leg as I laugh!!

9 weeks
9 weeks and we were looking at
19 surgeries, he had no pulse and a heart where his brain should have been
Intestinal atresia. Omphalocele.
3 holes in his heart
Like the thug life found him early, took a bullet for daring to breathe
This state forbids abortion and
That’ll be a $50 copay ma’am.
It’s going to get worse.
He might take you on his way out
You can’t do it here but I know (a place, a guy. You’ll be back to yourself in days.)
But there’s no me without him.
(25 years, 14 weeks later and i think of him everyday).

Me and his papi yeah,
We’re in the ring with him
The news got us all wrong!
Poor Chilean parents?!
Ay dios mío!
I’m a dental hygienist! His papi works on the military base!
We can afford this
But not all this
News travels fast, surfs up to the shore of
A man so powerful he controls the tide.
He gets up on stage and,
promises the world to our son
who’s bound for hell
We fight like it
As the weeks pass like seconds and you hurl yourself
Into this big place of hurt and loathing.

I wanted you to live, above all
die with dignity, but not before
Your dewy eyes look into the freedom
Of being alive
Really, truly,
Stretch your scarves into open-faced palms
And leap into the sunshine with his scarred own
In your other.
This man, this monster
Promises operations and medical care not available to people who look like us, sound like us, have our orientation our history our ability our tax bracket our fight and toil to live in the capitalistic shithole he stands upon
(And we’re in a pretty damn good tax bracket, mijita. On the weekends I think of what you’re like, what brunch you like and what gossip we share between just the two of us. I’d spoil you.)
We lose the fight
But not baby.

If he experiences
What it is to love and be loved by someone so deeply air gushes through his broken lungs
Stillborn heart filling with blood
Without missed beats, wholeness so supreme
He forgets he ever thought himself less than
Unrelenting sheer
abounding
adoration -
For his every wish and serendipity taken human shape,
Divinely crafted,
Love of his life
Then and
Only then
May we find a semblance of solace.

(I’ve been sleeping well the past seven years.)
(Just who are you?!)

chuck’s mom loves kaz
everyone loves kaz!!

tag: Kazashi McCoy

[Kazashi McCoy]

If it was up to her she wouldn't mind being lost in his embrace forever, just like this. His hand on her lower back, so comforting and natural at this point it was like it felt wrong when he wasn't there, when he wasn't holding her. A piece of her soul was missing when Chuck was away, whether it was work or just picking up groceries, it was simultaneously the best and worst feeling in the world. The fact that she had been so lucky to find her soulmate in a sea of other people, billions of people on this whole-ass planet and the hottest guy bumped into her in a tiny store, what were the odds?! Not only that, but he loved her back. She didn't really believe in anything, but she hella appreciated the gift fate had brought her by bringing her and Chuck together. She chuckled softly as he nuzzled against her, hands reaching up to lightly massage his shoulders. ''Ah don't think ya can compare the two. Yer inventions help out on a bigger scale, Ah just make clothes ta be worn for fashion, or daily, or because ya look so cute in them.'' She leaned in to kiss the top of his head, taking the opportunity to squeeze him into a tight, loving hug.

Her heart damn near leapt out of her chest with happiness when she managed to make the little ones laugh. There was something so pure about their joy. All they knew was love and safety and it was going to stay that way for as long as her and Chuck could push it. Already in their adorable little giggle fits, Chuck tickling their tums only made them laugh further, squirming around in his and her embrace. They were so small it was almost incomprehensible how these lil ones were going to grow into whole adults one day, probably taller than their ma and pa too!! ''That's right.'' She chuckled, ''ya wish with yer whole heart an' don't be ashamed of that. Ya have ta live proudly an' wish for what ya want.'' She rocked Zenji gently as she put him on her lap, his hands already excitedly tapping the paper before she brought him a pencil too. ''Ya see what dad an' Yuzuki are doin'? Let's try that.'' She whispered to him, giving the side of his head a few soft kisses. ''Here, like this.'' Her hand guided his to the page as he nibbled on the end of the pencil.

''I-It's not!'' She pouted, all red in the face. Guilty as charged!! She wanted the best for their children, for everyone. A long and prosperous life with Chuck and the lil ones, twins and any that might come after them. Still, she couldn't help but laugh with him, leaning a little closer into him as his hand went down her leg.

in a sea of stars
floating with you my soulmate
cosmic paradise

''Ah bet yer wishin' for the same thing that's why ya said it, isn't that right, Zenji? Ya got pa all figured out Ah can tell.'' She turned a bit so that Zenji, waving the pencil around in one hand could look up at Chuck. ''He sees ya simpin'.'' She grinned teasingly.

''Yer already so good at writin' Zenji, yer a little natural aren't ya?'' She picked up his slip of paper and showed it to Chuck. It was all scribbles and maximum chaos, but he had years to work on perfecting his kanji! ''That's one we can hang on the tree.''

Recently she had gotten a newfound appreciation for her mother. She had sacrificed her early years with her to get her out of a life of bloodshed, one where she would have been trained to be little more than a weapon of war. Someone who would be taught to kill long before any skills to read or think. Sitting here now with their twins, Kazashi couldn't fathom the pain her mother must have gone through too. The fact that she kept up the fight, trying to locate her all those years later spoke volumes about how much she loved her, and how good of a grandma she was going to be to these little snotlings. She loved Chuck too, which was the most important part to her. A mom that didn't accept her love as he was wouldn't be a mom she could keep in her life. Although with her mom being an active vigilante, crime seemed to run in the family regardless so odd jobs hella weren't looked down on.

Beginning on another wish, Kazashi guided Zenji's hand once more, but let him control most of where the pencil went. The result was a message for Chuck which came out in a very rough handwriting with lines going everywhere. ''Look what he wrote about ya.'' She showed the slip of paper to him, which read

Zenji loves dad.

CHUCK MCCOY

[CHUCK MCCOY]

✧ RIP ✧

A thought slips into my hardened heart every now and then: was it really okay to love somebody this much? To think of her every moment of every hour, one day not bleeding into the next till her ephemeral visage came to me in a dream? A thousand fleeting memories of her in the milliseconds of twilight blending to dawn, gorgeous haunting visions in the shape of her. I remember them all. I thought, without a shadow of a doubt that if the apocalypse would come and my love and I were the last two humans alive on earth, we’d happily spend all our days in a bunker with a simple bath and kitchen. Ain’t need nobody else, just unending bliss in the presence of the other. My shoulders melt into her hands, a pleased grumble slipping from my lips. I smile up at her when she kisses the top of my head, all four arms wrapping around her when she hugs me. I was flattered by what she said, red biting into my cheeks. Then I whisper into her collarbone. “Your clothes express the humanity in us, Kaz-chan,” I start, “our personalities, our toils, our wishes and desire all on our sleeves… I can’t get them off fast enough when I’m around you, though!!” I’d lean up and in for a sneak kiss!! I couldn’t stay wholesome long when she was here!!

I was glad our kids could see it, the undeniable resolute love me and their mom had for each other. Wanted the safety, love and encouragement we worked so hard for to be theirs. Couldn’t help but grin something silly at their laughter too, fingers going faster over their tums!! Seeing them smile made my day in a way I never would have thought possible!! “Exactly as your mama says!! I’ll beat the universe up if it ain’t give you what you wished for!! Then, in six months, you ask Santa all over again and me and your mo-I mean Santa will get it right!!” I cover Yuzuki’s ears, apologizing to my lil angel for the slip up. She heheus!! clapping her hands together as lil dribblets of spit drip from her chin. I wipe her gently, then look towards my son and wife!! His pencil chewing melted my heart! “Hella good form, Zenji!! Wish proudly like your mom says! Whole-heart just like we ain’t allow half-asses!!”

I burst out laughing, the color over her face living behind my eyelids for the rest of my days. Pleased me on a carnal level when she leaned in, too, desire skyrocketing from under me. Then I gasp at what she says, Zenji’s lil pencil wave and her teasing grin haunting me.

“H-he sees right through me, ain’t he?!” I lean slightly in, ruffling Yuzuki’s hair as she giggles madly at me. “LISTEN KID!!” I huff out my chest, voice no louder than the loudness it already was!! “I’m gonna simp over you and your sister and YOUR MOM your whole LIVES!! You better be ready! Your pa’s your #1 fan!” Their shoulder to cry on, their old anime dad with the advice, their money bag, their cook, and yes I will be complaining to the ref at volleyball games if my kid gets fouled!! All these things I ain’t yet experience flash before my eyes as she shows me his paper, absurd emotion coursing through me. Ain’t have a single clue what it says. But those were our son’s marks, one his little body put down to show the world his existence. “Oh OH! I see!! Zenji, your penmanship is hella good!! Super bigly big wishes!”

Despite what I looked like on the outside, I was getting more and more emotional!! Our demon snotlings, the love of my life, writing our wishes all together! It was the happy ending I ain’t deserve, a thousand dreams come true! I could picture my girl’s mom here, Gumi Mo and her girl too, my brother Brie and Gor too. So much had happened. How the hell did I get lucky enough to end up here? Following what our daughter was doing on the page, keeping the tears in, I was almost ready to bust when she spoke again!! A single tear left my eye seeing the paper. “Whoa! All the bamboo pollen,” I say, swiping it away. “Zenji. Your papa loves you too. C’mere!!” I lean over the table to barrage his forehead with kisses!!

The cicadas sing all around us in time to our pencils scribbling over paper. Yuzuki draws two triangles with lil sticks poking out of them and then a bigger and small circle, fast chaotic downward strokes for hair. It’s her and her mom, a giant heart encapsulating the two of them. She erupts in laughter as she shows it to Kazashi, hands all over the place. I get my notes ready, too. My hearts are just as lumpy and fun as hers!!

wat do ou want for dinner??
ur cute

tag: Kazashi McCoy

[Kazashi McCoy]

They were no strangers to trouble. Chuck’s job was dangerous and they had been targeted ever since their first couple of years together. Any sane person who wanted to raise a family nestled in safety, without a worry in the world would never have settled down with a criminal. She did. She didn’t even need time to think about it. Not when they first kissed and her heart was singing happy tunes, and not when he proposed and she was bawling, knowing her future with him was safe and secure. Life without Chuck was uncertain, but life with him, it was everything.

She still remembered those particularly dangerous nights when they had to seek shelter. How he would take her by the hand and they would run to the car. Run with the hunted, run deep into the forests and mountains seeking refuge in secret bunkers. When were they built and how? She was freezing, so cold that she could still recall the shivers so vividly. If only because it was followed by his four-armed embrace. The light of her life, his radiance enveloping her like a warm, comforting blanket. Could he feel it too, how he whisked her fears away in an instant just by being himself? They knew each other so well that she sometimes wondered, in those long hugs, whether her thoughts travelled through her fingertips and into his.

Those same four arms were wrapped around her now, making her grin all over. They weren’t in danger, but they never needed to be for him to bring her unending happiness. “The humanity? Ah never thought about it like that. Ah like it.” Only someone as smart and sensitive as her husband would think to say that! She giggled at his next comment, kissing him back as he leaned in for the sneak kiss. “As long as it’s just us at home, Ah’ll hella race ya ta see who’s faster.” She winked, brushing a strand of hair behind his ear.

“That’s right!” She chuckled lightly, her heart warming up when Chuck gently wiped drool off of their daughter’s chin. Looking back at their son she spoke up softly. “Zenji.” As she pulled him a few inches away from the bench he was trying to take a bite out of. “Ya think he’s gonna grow four arms too? Or Yuzuki will?” They were blue like their dad after all. Scooping Zenji up she nestled him close, turning her other hand into a soft scarf for him to hold onto and chew on.

“Listen ta yer pa. Ya probably don’t get it yet, won’t for a while, but we’ll always be here for ya.” They were going to experience all the fun holidays as a family, Japanese and American. What was it going to be like when they were older? Taking them to school, celebrating their birthdays. Would she receive clothing requests once they developed their own sense of fashion? “He’s a real talent.” She grinned, rocking him gently as he blew little raspberries. When Chuck leaned over she held Zenji out so he could more easily kiss his forehead, causing him to kick his little feet as he cooed up at his dad.

“Is that us?” She teared up immediately seeing the drawing, that was one for the fridge right there! “It’s amazin’ Yuzuki, ya could be a manga artist.” She laughed, wiping her own tears away. Turning her other hand into a scarf she reached across the table and gave Yuzuki’s cheek a little tickle. “For dinner? We have lots of leftovers at home, right? How about we start gatherin’ up our poems an’ hang ‘em up. Then we can start headin’ back afterwards.” She still held Zenji in one arm as she started collecting their paper slips. “Ah could go for somethin’ with lots of proteins today.” She let out a blissful sigh, kissing Chuck on his cheek as she walked past him. “An’ ya for dessert.” She whispered with a smirk.

CHUCK MCCOY